Something of a daily blog here...or at least every three days. This is more for myself, but others can join if they want, as long as they don't bore themselves by reading...
So, today is one of those days where I'm having difficulty getting motivated. It's a mental thing, obviously. I've a lot to take care of this coming week even though I'm on spring break. I'm blessed in that this school year has gone well, but I'm struggling with the thoughts of impending doom, as if I'm waiting for the proverbial shoe to drop.
Sometimes I wish I could go somewhere for a year, and just have no worries, but that's not possible. And because I'm 54 years old, a whole year is not a luxury anymore.
Insurance matters abound...one thing I need to work on is that Obama Affordable Care Act/Covered California signup so I can have some coverage. It's a cumbersome application process, to some degree, and I feel like I'm just uploading personal information for their intrusion at will. I suppose it will be to my benefit, but right now I'm not feeling the confidence.
I've been going through finances, and while we took care of a lot of stuff after taxes, the gravy train (refund) is about to run out. I hate being in this situation, but right now I don't know of many solutions. I struggle with the fear of things going wrong when I try to make them right because life just tends to push back harder. I know a lot of other people go through the same thing, but it's too difficult for me to push through it. I have some options but I don't really have the desire to take them on. Perhaps it's because I'm too scared to change, that I'm comfortable with the misery. I hate to think that I may of that mindset, because I've always made it a point to strive for positive solutions.
People have disappointed me over the last few months, and it makes me not want to get involved with people, more like wishing that I could do something that had little interaction with then, but I know that's not possible.
Time to take off for a bit...I've got errands to run.
Nos vemos...
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